My Other Half
No one is left curtailed and alone for all his life. There is always the presence of the moment of reconnection with the ‘other half’, from which you were both created. One is therefore incomplete without the other. Tales and stories about soul mates abound in history. Diverse versions and interpretations were made available for people to be enlightened and be informed.
One version I greatly depend on for my personal pursuit was the story that when God created the world. He made stars. It was told that those stars would later on be transformed into humans; us. Before He threw the stars in the skies, He made sure that each of the stars left and right hemispheres are equally subdivided, so that two stars will be formed from each of the glowing stars. One would become a whole from the left hemisphere, the other from the right one. When the stars were divided and were separated from their main bodies, they were set forth and thrown into an intergalactic immersion of new life and new beginning. The Master Divine uttered his final words that “Ye would have to remain individuals…and feel incomplete, until time has come unto ye and ye be joined and renew the ties that kept you all these years.”
When you try to look at the six sides of a star and fold it into two, you get the three focal divisions of human systems: the head, trunk and limb. There are people who function well with their right brain hemisphere and these were the stars, which were formed from the right side. Others do well with their left-brain hemisphere and they do best in mathematics and spatial-logical skills. Consequently these were the ancient stars, which were formed from the left side.
I have found the other part of me, my soul mate. The star that once completed me even just for quite some time. Ours was not the conventional type of meeting – ours was the contemporary accidental one. It was not an instant realization that she is the “one” already but it took me easier than I thought it would be to know that she is the one to complete me as a “self-puzzle”. In fact, when we first met I was sure we were in for just an innate fling. I was interested in another girl then which I courted while she was pretty much still in love with her studies and he loves no distractions and boyfriends first. After a few months’ time, we made a hi-hello friendship well. It was really unexpected. I began to plan to get her number, text messaging friendship as typical. At times, she would respond to my notes and messages, at times she was silent.
As time passed through our normal lives, I was surprised that she has already a boyfriend I realized and told myself, I shouldn’t be beginning to fall for her by this time. It’s my lament that I’ve “just” waited for the right time doing nothing, and the worst thing is, it will never work for me because it’s my disadvantage; I don’t have these great possessions in life as her boyfriend has. I don’t have much. A factor that will certainly control and diminish my guts to fall for her. It just wasn’t meant to be – or so I thought. Even as I kept spending a lot of time with my “baby”, I deeply realized and at the back of my mind played a thought, “I would be happier if I am with her and I know its crazy to say, that when I see her angelic smile during classes, it would sometimes stop my consciousness and my concentration”…0:-)
When we finally have our break-up with my present angel, I thought there is more ‘moral fiber’ would be in me now and I thought I can make it by this time. But, as I heard from my and her friends, she is very comfortable and happy with him. I became silent when in fact my heart was pounding and aching inside. The pain was too unbearable to bear. I now assumed “it is over”! and it was just an illusion to fall with her. I stick to the idea that I am not in-love with her. But even as I tried to keep up my pride, I realized that there was no fooling myself…I had fallen in love with her. I guess it’s true that when love comes, it just sneaks up on you quietly and bangs itself on the door when it leaves.
Seeing her happy with another guy, and shedding my tears in keep and in hidden (even though, boys shouldn’t cry!…as my principle) I regret that I haven’t do the things I should’ve done when the clouds was not yet gloomy for me and we were good as before. Being a sincere freak is stupid. I started to think that we were never meant to be, and I should start to accept things as they are. After all, he can’t love me forever and vice versa anymore. I should cut myself some slack and try to find someone new.
So I started slowly and getting over the pain, but I guess I was never really over her. I tried get into other relationships, but they unfortunately never worked out. That was the time I reflected that we can never be just “friends”, because I know she is already a big part of my life. She will always be this flame that will never fully extinguish. She is the opposite of me. While I am outgoing and a “gimikero”, she is quiet and reserved. She is the one. She is certainly the other half of the star that I was looking for, but only time and God’s plan can decide whether it would shine on me and complete the whole of me.
Love really does exist 24/7, but only for those who are willing to show their deepest emotions and let go of their superficialities that love and souls can really show their magic and drive the darkness away from this life and infinitely shower us with light and unconditional love, that only the true stars can radiate.
(Dedicated to someone who will
never be mine, unless God’s
time and plan…)
Ariza, Bryan Ray S.
AB – MassComm 3