First of all, I was a heavy smoker, smoking 32-37 cigarettes a day, which was something pretty much for a 32 lady. I hated everybody who used to give me advises about my health and all the "blah,blah" at that time. I was giving myself such a phenomenal philosophy regarding the cigarettes, by which I gave myself the excuse to kill what is left of my youth that is still not been damaged.
My philosophy depended on several grounds that was essential to everybody’s life, so when people used to talk to me about "quitting smoking for the sake of my health" , I used to shut them up with my philosophy, which was:
1- My cigarette is my best friend; I called her (she) so I’m giving her the privilege of being like a real girl friend, she is the only one who sees me in moments of joy, happiness, sadness, anger, and misery!!!
2- My cigarette is the only one who tells me NOT to come near by her or even think of approaching her because she will give me the most dangerous disease I’ll ever catch!!!!
3- My cigarette is the only one who loves me, even MOM wont burn herself for the sake of my entertainment!!!!
4- My cigarette is the only one who tells me the truth, she tells me that she is not the right thing to do, and she is so bad. Nobody dares to say so in my face.. I mean she is the most truthful friend and thus she’s worthy of my trust.
5- My cigarette is my secret keeper; I can say everything in front of her, in a shameless, fearless and most honest way.
6- I have so much time left, why should I quit now? I’m getting old, and nobody stays young!!!
7- Nothing I can do can give me one moment of relief as she does.
8- She’s so elegant, neat and gives a sexy look to a woman knows how to smoke one!!
But; only one person told me that my beloved cigarette could be the silent killer of my children, she became nasty..With all the love I had for her, I had to give myself a second thought about this what seemed to be an endless love..
And the struggle began…I made everything possible to keep my children away from the cigarette smoke… I couldn’t succeed…I tried to cut down the amount of cigarettes smoked daily, and I couldn’t succeed. I was like a rat trapped when my kids are around.. Then .. I had to decide to quit, and believe me it was the hardest decision that I’ve ever made..
And here are the reasons why I had come to the most important decision in my life:
1- My cigarette is not essential in my life like my children.
2- My cigarette is a loss of my health, the same health that I’m going to need to raise my children.
3- My cigarette is a loss of money, the same money that my children are worthier of having!!
4- My cigarette takes 7 minutes to end, and if I was smoking lets say 30 cigarettes a day, it will take 210 minutes which I can absolutely be happy to spend with my children rather than sneaking to the balcony to enjoy smoking them!!
5- I also discovered that I didn’t love myself enough to think of something to do better than being addicted to smoke with will burn my entire body without mercy.
6- I also figured that it only gets things worst so if I managed to handle quitting bravely I will be a row model for my children to teach them how can they have something called Strong Will.
That was an honest moment in my life that made me think of myself a little bit, and take care of myself and join the group of healthy people. So, if you are a smoker, please ask yourself this question: Are you smoking a cigarette or smoking your life? and it’s up to you..